akadabrat312

lalala

Tue, 18 May 2004 21:23:33 GMT

yesss i havent wrote in this thing forever life has been busy... busy busy week..im working alot of hours and high school is almost over!!!! yessss

cant wait for prom..its guna be greatttt.

after prom will be fun too;)

and before prom..

blahhhh

this totally sucks, my car is messed up and i really cant drive it untill it gets fixed which is really annoying.

everyone come visit me sunday between 5-9 at the fair, cuz ill be working at it:)

thats really it <3

leave comments;)

busy busy busy

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 02:13:00 GMT

wow, so i havent wrote in this thing in 4ever!!!.. im backkkkk

well maybe..life has been sooo very busy, and i havent really been around.

spring break...yeh just a good excuse to work more hours..

yesss im def. not goin out 2nite considering i slept for an hour last night..

goodnight:) <333

hello again..

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 05:49:39 GMT

yeh so i havent wrote in this thing forever, ive had so much to do lately it isnt even funny. Hopefully soon life will slow down a little bit, but until then ya kno the deal. Im exhausted, but yeh that means nothing.

basically i have nothing that i want to write;)

laterrr <333

just thinking

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 03:22:31 GMT

i gotta say somethings..

it is the WORST feeling ever when people you thought were so important to you, you realize they arent..

thank you to my TRUE friends for everything..
i love you guys...

thats it really..
back to reality 2moro..
ooh joy..

thats whats up...

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 03:19:19 GMT

woot woot so friday im legal.. i dono that really means nothin to me considering nothings different lol..

umm yehh i got so much shit to do, i dont kno whyyyy im wasting my time with this..but yehh

thats it;) <333

Everything......

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 01:24:42 GMT

find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again

you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life
to my soul
you are my purpose
you're everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this yeah

you calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

thats life...

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 01:21:02 GMT

well well, just as things are starting to calm down...

who would EVER think..calm down? my life?..NEVER

its basically non-stop stress...but i guess thats 4 everyone..

if these past few weeks have taught me anything it is that you never know who your friends are... no matter how long you've been friends with someone, no matter how close you think you are with someone, no matter how much you have been there for that person...THEY WILL NEVER BE THERE FOR YOU.

this is why all the smart people are selfish... cuz this way they dont expect things from people...

guess thats where i went wrong in life... but people make mistakes..

mistakes... gotta love em;)

thats that...

ooh and if you plan on continuing to be my friend..i suggest that something is done for my birthday...yes, this applies to a few people.

later <333

well, well, well

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 00:03:28 GMT

yeh so its Sunday night....

every Sunday night for as long as i can remember has been aka Sex and the City Night... ugh!! this is sooo horrible!!! no other show will ever be as good as that one..

depression mode starts here;)

anyway.. busy week (like most weeks)..what else is new..

i dono thats really it...

<333

questions...that i really dont want to hear the answers to...

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 05:34:48 GMT

andtheriskissoworthtaking*

(that can be the quote of the year)

after the past few weeks, ive realized a real lot of things..

i realized who my true friends are, and i realized who i can trust in life(finally), i realized that forgiving people is the on the top 5 of the hardest things a person will ever have to do...

even though sometimes you know a person is so wrong, how do you know that they actually realized how wrong they really were...

by asking for an apology, and getting an "im sorry"..does that truly mean anything, considering you asked for one?

so many questions..no answers..ever.. somethings in life i guess will always be unanswered questions..

sometimes i guess in a way having questions unanswered is easier then hearing the real answers...

so.. is it better to forgive and forget..

or just to leave things the way they are..

this pain is just to real..

theres just to much that time cannot erase...

okay, and tomorrow at 9:00 pm.. i will be sooo sad because there will be no more sex and the city..and that is horrible:(

thats enough i think...

laterr <333

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 03:58:33 GMT

nothing i really want to right about right now..

but just one thing.. bri and vanessa, you guys are the best people in the world, and i love ya both soo much, thank you for everything.. i really appreciate you guys

ooh for those of you who have bad memories my 18th birthday is march 12th..so yeh keep that in mind..thankssss;)

fYi...

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 15:36:52 GMT

Anna's my bestest friend in the entire world and NO1 elses

uh huh :/

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 15:33:20 GMT

well a week off of school=ilisa works everyday..

but yeh, i havent wrote in this thing for awhile, basically b/c my parents decided to rip half the house apart and "clean" personally i think they made a huge mess..but hey, who am i to say anything:)

thank god there is no school this week, i hate school and id rather be working anyway.

had a pretty good weekend tho..

i dono what else to write..so yeh thats all..

laterrr <333

and i just wanna break it dOwN...

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 00:51:28 GMT

yeh so today, school-gym-stupid asl project.. and yeh thats that..

yeh im becoming addicted to the gym again, but hey theres worse things to be addicted 2;)..

hahaha two too to = six... (only understood by a special few;) )

yeh i love leavin school early everyday.. its great.. and yeh fridays are the best cuz i get out of school at 12:10.. i <3 scale psychology..heh

thats all.. time for a starbucks run..

laterr <333

Until the day i die..

ill spill my heart for you </3

whats upppp

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 06:41:53 GMT

yeh this weekends been pretty good actually.. i got to sleep late today:) yay.. ohh and my cars fixed..:)

hmm so today.. went to the gym n out to lunch with brian.. then worked all night.. gotta love it..

and tomorrow no work.. woot woot.. got alot of homework to do kinda sorta maybe..who knows.. and goin 2 the mall with laurie. and then blah school on monday and work.gotta love mondays.. NOT..

no time for anything this week..gotta love that too.. workin friday n saturday night..and i got stuff to do all week.. oooh yes!

anywaysss

thats whats up..;)

and baby i just melt away..
fall like rain..
everytime i see your face..i go off..
i just wana break it down..
anytime you come around..
and baby i could melt away..
in your arms..

<333

TgiF?

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 03:23:25 GMT

yeh its friday, so like every friday for as long as i can remeber i worked from 1-9:30.. yeh fun rite? alwaysssss

anyways yeh also like every friday night im like to tired to do anything cuz yeh thats the way it goes.. i mean i just want to sleep but i dont.. blahh yeh;)

yay..saturday mornin' gym with brian and maybe vanessa.. its jus one of those things that yah always gotta look forward too. then workin at night.. shocking isnt it?

possibly time to sleep.. ya kno?:)

ooh yeh and cant forget the depression shoppin trip on sunday with laurie..haha

ohh yeh and the project for my stupid ASL class.. bitch.

andddd my psych. workbook.. blahh

and thats that;)

when does it end?

laterrrr <333

:/

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 02:07:16 GMT

came into my life..sent from above..when i asked to go home..boy you showed me love..checkin for ya boy, you right on time..angel of mine </3

woot woot, that used to be the song of the moments of way back whenever those horrible times are.. yeh havent heard it in 4ever and of course yes today i'm drivin home in the rain, what better then to hear this song.. by the way if you dont kno what im talkin bout dont ask cuz yeh :)

woot woot i cant wait for ER on Thursday.. this week im not guna 4get to watch it or tape it.. this week i feel like i've been taping stuff for people all week..but yeh its alll good;).. yeh cuz im good like that..hah

ooh yeh and my song of the day is def. dedicated to someone cuz he told me to download it and yeh thank you :) heh

laterr <333

yeah yeahh yeahhh

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 20:45:06 GMT

yeh wud up peoples.. busy day so yeh this will be short and sweet...

2nd semester started today...oh joy.. this means only 2 more quarters of high school...thank god:) time to move on to better things..

i hope people were lying to me wen they said that high school is the best time in life... Yeh they def. are;)

time for work...

laterrr <333

believe me i won't let you down

because you're the best thing i got around

yUcKy

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 18:22:46 GMT

yeh i feel like shit, i dono i have like a headach, maybe its cuz i really dont wana go back to school 2moro, but i kinda have to cuz i cant miss anymore school..

yeh i also really dont feel like working today, cuz i dont feel good, and im not in the mood for caffiene addicts with attitude problems:)

but if ya wana be nice then come visit..if not then dont..

whatever time to go..

laterrr <333

mornin'

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 15:03:09 GMT

hey everyoneeee..

ahh sex and the city is almost over...omg wat am i guna do now!!! for like ever every sunday night was totally devoted to that show:( now what!!!! lol...

so random..

anyways for those of you who kno what happened the other day, thanks for being there for me.. especially one person..who i really appreciate, cuz yeh;)

umm thats really it...

blahh back to school 2moro:(..i dont wana goooo..

laterrr <333

yay

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 17:32:54 GMT

im like in this awsome mood and like NOTHING can change that.. yay!..

goin to the gym soon with a few awsome people;) then working tonight..which is blahh but its all good

ahh and jay! congrats to jay cuz he hasnt smoked in 5 days..woot woot;) i heart youuuu

thats that..

laterrr <333

hollllla;)

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 05:16:30 GMT

Yeh so anywaysssss...

its Friday Night and i worked the stupidest shift time EVER.. actually it ruined 2 peoples nights..but yeh thats life..:)

im lovin the no school thing.. this realllly works for me.. woot woot no school till tuesday.. but it kinda sucks cuz now we lose a day of spring break..but i wont go anyways..

if ya didnt realize im becoming a gym addict again.. ooh yay.. lol.. thats soooo random.. but whatever...

i so wanna go out 2nite but im like so tired and theres nothing to do n yeh.. im like blahh...

thats that.. at least this weekend should be fun..:)..

laterrr <333

uh huh..

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 17:33:33 GMT

wud up peoples... yeh its one of those days that all ya wana do is sit down n watch tv or movies or whatever..

but... we all know that this can NEVER happen:)

so instead of sitting around i went to the gym and ran cuz my arms hurt to bad to do nething else lol.. then came home went back to sleep..and now im here.. yay..

oohh yes n my best friend anna is the smartest person in the world becuase she knew exactly where i could get the hand cream ive been looking for allllll week! yay!

woot woot.. working 2nite from 5-10.. wat kinda crazy shift is that..oohh well not guna complain.. but yes i kinda am cuz there kinda goes my friday night..so yeh that KINDA sucks..

anyways.. going to ulta to get my hand cream.. yay!!

laterrrr <333

oh yeh..

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 06:15:01 GMT

anyways the day started out cool, but like most things ended pretty shitty..

work was cool n everything but i feel blah n i really wasnt in the mood to go..

like always, everything has to change...

it sucks sometimes when people that you thought you really knew in life suddenly change so much..

ive been seeing alot of that lately..

so anyways..thats life..

forget this life..come with me..

dont look back..your safe now..

.No one is left to stop you.

later <333

woot woot

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 16:39:37 GMT

hey guyss.. im in like an awsome mood for some reason:) suprised?..hah anyways, jus got home from the gym.. goin 2 angela's soon for her birthday! happy birthday!! then starbucks 2night..yay i get to work with brian.. ooh by the way i better get out early 2night so i can chill with jay:)..cuz yeh that would be cool..woot woot..

laterrr <333

woot woot

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 16:29:05 GMT